I am finally settling down , am not quite as nervous as I was earlier in the week. I think, with the death of a young friend and the anxiety and excitement of my upcoming journey just about got the best of me. I just haven't felt well, mentally or physically. There has definitely been an unusal amount of dread in the air. Maybe my "Woman Within Weekend" is just what the doctor ordered and right on time on all counts.
For the next 48-72 hrs., I will be focused on "Me" and that is something I have not been use to for quite a few years now. It's always the hub, the mom, the gkids, the kids, the business, the house, the yard, the garden, the cars, the groceries, the this, the that. And don't get me wrong, I love doing all of these things, but I must admit sometimes I get lost in what I am doing and why or who I am and the real reasons for WHY AM I HERE?..and what's truly important when it all boils down to it. Why I am so upset about this little thing and so nonchalant about something I should have given more thought. I'm at the point, that I do not feel quilty about doing something for me this time. I feel good about it and finally realize it is a necessity. I have decided to face my depressive tendencies head on thru Real help and Guidance rather than tackling it alone and never arriving anywhere. Stuck in the mud, TIME TO GET OUT! See, there is that MicroscopicGleam again..Thank God...I'll know soon if I obtained the tools necessary to achieve my goal....Until next week..
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