A New Beginning to The Rest of My Life..

I've taken a few days to absorb my "Woman Within" weekend.  The program was more than I ever expected.  I reclaimed my inner self~ bitch, witch, and crone energy abounds! I am so grateful that a friend recommended the self healing support that has turned my life from bleak at best, to bright shining sunshine. I had kinda dug a hole and practically jumped in and covered myself up. Due to reasons I will divuldge as I go along, my life thus far has been a whirlwind of emotion, never settling, and always regretful. Negativity and dread were the "normal" ways of starting my day.  I have always been seeking solutions, either thru traditional thearpy, talking with friends and family, self observation and analysis, and religious bouts, needless to say, to no avail, or either my relief was always short-lived. I, now, finally, TRULY have the tools within me to work towards being a better person. I took a deep look inside myself , realized the issues, dealt with them, and set them aside for good. This may not make much sense, but, I'll sort it out...Tis GOOD to be back....

Calm After The Storm

I am finally settling down , am not quite as nervous as I was earlier in the week. I think, with the death of a young friend and the anxiety and excitement of my upcoming journey just about got the best of me.  I just haven't felt well, mentally or physically. There has definitely been an unusal amount of dread in the air.  Maybe my "Woman Within Weekend" is just what the doctor ordered and right on time on all counts.
For the next 48-72 hrs., I will be focused on "Me" and that is something I have not been use to for quite a few years now. It's always the hub, the mom, the gkids, the kids, the business, the house, the yard, the garden, the cars, the groceries, the this, the that. And don't get me wrong, I love doing all of these things, but I must admit sometimes I get lost in what I am doing and why or who I am and the real reasons for WHY AM I HERE?..and what's truly important when it all boils down to it. Why I am so upset about this little thing and so nonchalant about something I should have given more thought. I'm at the point, that I do not feel quilty about doing something for me this time. I feel good about it and finally realize it is a necessity. I have decided to face my depressive tendencies head on thru Real help and Guidance rather than tackling it alone and never arriving anywhere. Stuck in the mud, TIME TO GET OUT!  See, there is that MicroscopicGleam again..Thank God...I'll know soon if I obtained the tools necessary to achieve my goal....Until next week..

Man What A Day~~

Sorry to Post the news today.. An exceptional woman and family member has passed on at the tender age of 34. Rebekah will be remembered for the love and compassion she always showed everyone she met. She was the very proud mother of two small boys, Ethan & John Everette, PLEASE pray for them as well as her high school sweetheart and husband of 13 yrs as well. He also lost his only sister to a brain tumor about two years ago. Only with the constant love from his family and the courage , strength, and faith from the good Lord above, will he manage. She also left behind 3 wonderful sisters (nieces and nephews who adored her) and her mother and father who I am sure are devastated. Please send up a prayer for the entire family. Tho Rebekah is gone from this life, her image will remain in our hearts forever.....One of a kind...

Microscopic Gleam

This will be a quick Post, cause I still have not made the Blog a priority, but, am thinking now is as good a time as any! One week from today, I will be attending a Women's Training Weekend and I truly hope it will change my life.

As I Blog, if you read it, you will get to know me or if the ultimate is achieved, I'll get to know me! That's right~ I am focusing on the Blog as a Self Help Tool at the moment..recording my thoughts and activities periodically, so I can look back AND forward and reflect AND progress. A Good way to talk it all out without the bored or hurried look on the face of a family member or friend.

What IS this World coming too??? I know I'm not very happy with what I see, hence, the name of my Blog, Microscopic Gleam.
Microscopic Gleam?, you say??
My Definition~ Straight from Katjack's Dictionary:
The tiniest ray of light, so small, one can barely see, but it's there off in the distance, just beyond reach, and the gleam is hope and truth..

without fear for any reason...

To be continued...
(I'll be adding pics to the madness soon)